Went running at Arboretum this evening. Had been housebound all day and rather lethargic from a late night of cigars and brandy. It was nice for clearing my head. I took an unhurried run listening to my body and responding to what it said steadily building up speed. I did a circuit round the edge of the forest and then walked back into the middle and sat on a covered bench just as a slight drizzle began. It was nice to sit and look at the rain while reading Christopher Alexander and watching people. Lots of young guys in couples and small groups. Some were taking photos, some in circles doing group activity and other walking. On the one hand, youth is naively innocent. On the other, there is an appeal in their ability to be fully in the moment, totally carefree and self unconscious. I want to be like that. As Christopher Alexander says in "The Way" about letting go of the image in my mind and allowing myself to experience life. Young people are aspirational and they have fears and hurts and pains and unmet needs but they are also accepting of their constraints and take what life is giving them at that moment. So there's a kid there with worn out clothes who'd like nicer clothes and shoes but because they where the shoes they have, they don't overthink it. They walk from the town centre to arboretum and back and get into a matatu and go home somewhere in Eastlands or Uthiru or Roysambu. But they went to Arboretum to fully enjoy themselves. I think I will be happier if I just take what each day gives and make the most of it rather than constantly trying to bend life to an image in my head.
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